A Loner

When I was young, at the age 13, I was a such happy lucky girl. My motto " Don't worry be happy" on that time.. I was very very happy without worrying anything.. I had a long disscussion, walked and even liked to scream with my very dear friends.. Talking loudly, jogging together, my favourite pass time.

But, when I was 15, I already changed. My broken heart made me felt so stressed about.. My first love is failed.. Sobs~  Then, my father fell sick and that was also my turning point. My very dear father stayed at the hospital almost two weeks and I had took a month of leave on my study to help my very dear mum.


A month.. But, I had to.. My dear sister and brother were working.. So, I had to sacrifice for my very dear family.. I went to school and explaned everything to the teachers who was teaching me..First when I saw my very dear friend (my bestfriend, indeed) I couldn't control my tears anymore.. I cried and hugged her tightly.. ;'(

All my friends, included the all form three students, watched me crying.. (shame on me)
After that, I came to meet my adopted father ( a history teacher ) to tell him my excuses for take a long break on my study.. Firstly, he didn't agree with my desicion, but when he saw me crying, he hardly accepted..

Then, I met with my KH teacher at the male students' stairs, to get my stuff of the KHB project for PMR.. I wanted to do it at home. She asked me why I took it so early. I answered her with my tears.. I cried again.. She hugged me when I cried until the form 5 male students saw me crying.. She took me to her room and gave all the things that I needed..Alhamdulillah.. They understood me.. ;)


I went back home by a motorcycle myself..;)
I cried along the road.. I felt very very sad..;'(
Arriving my place, I picked up my youngest brother from Tabika on that time..
I was so lucky that I didn't take a long time to reached there or my little brother will be sulking.. I strengthen my heart, my soul, gave a sweetiest smiles for him so he wouldn't feel what I had felt inside...